Why am I doing a blog?
there are a couple of reason - first, i believe it will keep my site more up to date and second, it will make me think about what i am saying. (clarity of the mind)

APRIL 2008 blog

April 1, 2008
 Today is all fool’s day.  Won a million dollars in the lottery but being the person I am, I donated it all to the starving children in India and Pakistan.  Why them? I’m not particularly sure.  If you’d really feel better about it let’s say “I donated all of the proceeds to ______________________ (you fill in the blank) Consequently I am the same today as I was yesterday but certainly feeling less burdened by the “weight” of money.

April 2, 2008
Have you ever though about what you would do if you had a windfall “million dollars” fall into your lap overnight? I’ve thought about it and this is what I believe I would do.
The thought of buying myself a car, or house would be the most first thing that would run thorough my head but having really though about it,  I would take the money and put it the highest interest yielding institution I could find (a safe one though, maybe spread it around so as not to be caught in one of those “if the bank went bankrupt, what would you do” scenarios. I would live off the interest.  At 5% you would get back 50k and at 6% you could get back 60k. and if you had  a decent job paying 2000 a month you could be
In pretty good company at 74-84k a year.

April 3, 2008

Well, it wouldn’t be that much after taxes took out a chunk.  Maybe you SHOULD just spend it. Can’t take it with you. 

March 13, 2008

Today is the first day of my so called thoughts for the day. I don't know why i chose this particular day but it was as good as any. Seemed like i had nothing urgent to attend to so decided to do something with my web page. am currently busy working on some rendering projects and a major website. you will be able to see them when i complete them in the near future. this daily log thing is new to me so i am not particularly sure how to approach this but i thought that it may be a good idea to give my thoughts on something i was thinking about that particular day. it should be interesting because i'm really not sure where it will take me but like everyone else, i have an opinion on everything so will probably never run out of things to say. And it may not be right for everyone but it is right for me. (at least for that day - i've learned that opinions are like the clouds in the sky)


March 14, 2008 – FORGIVING

I was thinking about forgiving today.  I’ve learned that it’s probably better to forgive someone who does something wrong to you because if you don’t the bad feelings just fester and hang inside of your head taking up valuable space.  I kinda think that if you let something go, it’s as if you’re saying that it’s not that important and consequently not really worth your effort and time. Probably a good idea to not stay upset with anyone or with any situation. Forgiving is like taking the stones out of the walkway so you can travel more easily.

March 15, 2008 – FORGIVING

question came up. "what if someone beat up your mother, sister or girlfriend? would you still forgive?" perhaps forgiving isn't what is being addressed. if something like that happened to someone close to me, i would certainly be pissed off. would i be able to let the person off? can't say that i would be able to. maybe in time. i guess you would need to be near "jesus" like to be able to forgive with a true heart. i'm pretty sure that it wouldn't like me under those circumstances. what i'm trying to say is that one needs to try his best to move on. forgiving many small things would certainly help in the process. a larger "hurt" would certainly be harder to move on from, but it certainly seems to be what needs to be done if you want to continue "living". maybe you can't forgive everything in life but to continue to be productive in life, i think you need to learn to accept some of these things and move on.


March 16, 2008
Kinda had a day off. Actually when you’re trying to do a daily thing, it really gets to be a chore and you need to set aside some time for it. actuality I’m doing this on Monday morning so i' really did have a day off . 

March 17, 2008 – FRIENDS
I’ve got a few really good ones. Great ones in fact. And in actuality you don’t really need many friends. You just need the ones you can turn to when you need them.  There are many people you may be acquainted with but really, how many are really friends.
they are the ones you go out and eat with, talk with and basically share your problems with.  A few good ones are plenty. Besides how many people in this world would you
want to know that you . . .


March 18, 2008 –
Heard one day that “a true friend is one who can slit your throat”. Never gave it much thought when I first heard it but . . .  don’t you think that your closest friends can "bury" you if they wanted to.  They are usually the ones you open your home and heart to.


March 19, 2008-
Was thinking about my folks who are getting on in years and thought about dying myself.
Not about me dying in the near future or anything like that but just me and death in general.  I’ve had this philosophy for quite a while and I don’t really know if it has helped or hurt but I don’t think I am afraid of dying.  A guy I knew once told me “if you’re not afraid of dying, there isn’t anything in this world that would scare you.”It’s really true, if death was the ultimate end and you weren’t afraid of it, what in this world could you be afraid of?” it’s been and intriguing concept, but fact of the matter is that I’ve never faced “death” so although I say that I’m not afraid of dying,  I couldn’t really say for sure.


March 20, 2008 – PAST, PRESENT, FUTURE
Here is another thought to live your life by (as if you didn’t already know how to live your life) - live your life today.  Why worry about the past - things that have already happened. Can’t do anything about it, move on.  Don’t worry about the future. It hasn’t happened, that’s another thing you can’t do anything about. Although you can try to direct it, you will never know for sure what "truck " is gonna hit you as you are crossing the street. You should spend some time thinking about the future and what you want to do. Figure out a plan and do what you can today to reach that goal and do the best today for it. Basically you should spend very little time in the past other then learning from it. You should spend very little time in the future other then to see where it is you want to go or what it is you want to do.  Then spend all of today working hard to do what can to get to where you want to go.


March 21, 2008 – PAST, PRESENT, FUTURE
On that, (above) I should say, practice what you preach.  I believe it is a good philosophy. I do a fairly good job of living today for today. I don’t dwell in the past and I don’t think too much about the future. My shortcoming I believe would be in not living today to the fullest for tomorrow.  Think about it, if you did the best you could today and you did it everyday, what is there to really be sorry for. You will only feel sorry if you thought you could have done more.


March 22, 2008 – PAST, PRESENT, FUTURE
One thing about living, the first day of your life is always today so why not try to do the most and best today for tomorrow. Hmmm, that’spretty good.

March 23, 2008 – PAST
Don’t know how true it is but I’ve noticed (or it could be with just some of my friends)
That as we grow older we start talking more and more about out aches and pains, what ails us and how hard it is to move around now days. They also like to reminisce about high school and college.   I’ve also noticed that with my younger friends, (in their thirties and forties) they are still talking about what they want to do next year or in the next five ten years.  Do you think that some of this is what makes you old? Hmm. Maybe when
You start thinking about how things were instead of how things are going to be, it becomes the beginning of the end?

March 24, 2008 – PRESENT
Because I  have always pretty much lived the present, I don’t particularly like to dwell on the past. Consequently, I find talking about high school things somewhat boring. I do admit though that I don’t do enough in the present to not regret it when it is the “past”.
I should try to do as much as I can today.

March 25, 2008 – FUTURE
I do find that I don’t think about the future as much as I used to at one time. I think that one thinks about the future more when one has “family” (particularly younger ones) who depend on them.  Not having anyone to really have to take care of, leaves me to not want to really work or do things harder then I am now.  Do you think . . .?

March 26, 2008 – HAPPY?
Does not thinking so much about the future mean that you are happy with your life and currently content?  I don’t think I am happy nor content. But neither am I terribly unhappy.  I do wish I could do more  but am not unhappy with that.  Is this what life is about?

March 27, 2008 –
I just spent the last half hour or so filling up the last five days of my blog. So I think will not say anything of consequence here excepting that I spent the last half hour of my life writing about to fill up five days of my past.  But I wasn’t thinking about my past, I was writing about my thoughts presently which may or may not affect my future.


March 29, 2008 – TEACH OR LEARN
A good friend of mine, who at times can be very abrasive to people, primarily because he doesn’t mince words told me once, “either teach or learn.” Didn’t make a lot of sense at the time but made a lot of sense later.  I believe that he meant that if you are not teaching someone something or learning something from someone, you are wasting your time.
It really is true if you really think about it.  How often do you hear people gossiping, telling jokes, or engaging in small talk.  (it isn’t entirely wrong but if you think about it, if it isn’t making you more aware or making your “community or world” a better place,
Aren’t you in essence wasting your time. 

Did you notice that I didn’t do March 30th.

March 31, 2008
Well, it’s the end of the month, I’ll bet that there wasn’t a single person who bothered to read this.  Maybe I’m wasting my time but I’d rather think that I am defining  and developing my philosophy within my own mind. It probably won’t make me a wise man,
But it may make me think I am.  Tomorrow is a new month, and I start this all again.

October 31, 2008
was just halloween. got a lot of candy. only about a dozen kids came by. i guess i have to eat the rest. next year, i'll just buy one bag.

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